After Life (終極後人生)

無意中在Netflix發現這套英劇，題材正是最合我，講述主角Tony的太太死後他的人生。全劇只有6集，每集約25分鐘，很輕鬆地就可以看完，期待有第二季的來臨。

劇集看起來感覺一點也不沉重，尤其Tony這位主角充滿著英式幽默，其實內容是令我有很多會心微心。Tony的太太所拍的片段，對在生的人是一種鼓舞，也是一種回憶，不過太太死後，Tony只想自殺了結自己生命。同住的狗，也是給Tony希望去活下去。如果我愛的人會這樣做，我想我除了會哭得崩潰之外，還會努力活下去，有力量地、有意義地燃燒生命下去。

圍繞Tony而出現的角色，如sex worker、舅仔、照顧Tony爸爸的護士、在墳墓前的與Tony談人生的Anne，還有道友Julian，都與Tony互相影響著。Anne的丈夫Stan都去世了，Anne會不時到Stan的墓前靜坐，就這樣巧遇同時喪偶的Tony，很愛Anne與Tony在墳墓前的幾席話，對談都充滿智慧、豁達、幽默。節錄最尾一集Tony與Anne的對談：

Tony : How are you?

Anne : Yes, I am happy. I had the most wonderful life with Stan. And I have all those memories. That's all we are anyway, really memories. And Stan had a wonderful life too, he didn't have any pain, doesn't really know it's over. I do, but I'd rather live missing him than for him to live missing me, that's how much I love him. I wouldn't change anything. If I went back to change one thing I didn't like, I might lose something that that bad thing eventually took me to. You shouldn't regret anything, or think "well, if I went back I might do this or I might do that."

Tony : I'd go back to 1998, and punch Gavin Tilley in the face for looking at Lisa (Tony's wife).

Anne : For looking at her?

Tony : It was the way he looked at her. He winked. She ignored it. I pretended I hadn't seen it. I knew it was wrong to punch him, but I think it was also embarrassed about being jealous over something, so.... But now I wish I'd punched him in the face. 

Anne : haahaahaaa

Tony : I found I was ranting about how's life worth living today at work for the first time since Lisa died. And that's you fault. And I thought I am gonna carry on saying and doing...what I want...and punishing the world, but I am gonna punish people who deserve it. I am gonna use my superpower for good. 'Cause when I was doing and saying exactly what I wanted, it always felt better when it was also the right thing to do. Know what I mean? If you're a good person, doing things you want to do is the same as you doing good.

Anne : And you are a good person, and I'd really rather you didn't kill yourself. Because it would be a waste. You might not like living much, but you make the world a better place. And don't give up, because then they've won, and they grow in numbers.

Tony : Who?

Anne : Assholes, you know like Gavin Fucking Tilley.

Tong : haha, Gavin Fucking Tilley.

令人覺得最無奈就是劇中那個精神科醫生，Tony每次跟他見面，都要強調"I am paying you"，Tony對太太的放下可以move on，精神科醫生的功勞最少吧。